to deal with.

patiently waitin'
got me pacin' in the mind
time displaced facin'
while i'm chasin' what's inside
thoughts provoke thoughts
now i'm caught up in a bind
seen a glimpse of that light
but no longer in my eyes

steps to the side
as that picture starts to fade
figure formed darkness
now the heart is under shade
heavy rain coming down
on the road no longer paved
so it's gettin' harder now
for me to be on my way

this pain that i'm dealing with
i refuse to let it show
hidden under laughs and smiles
you see me on the go
as those curtains stay up
i remain professional
so frustrations only surface
when the curtains finally close

stone facial features
start to wither and then crack
respiration then begins
with that patting on the back
strength that once held
no longer is intact
and with tears flowing down
how am i supposed to deal with that.

by ntrl hgh